Published on August 17, 2004 By RevCar In Welcome
More and more I have come to understand that I am a very angry person. Have been, still am and wonder if I always will be. The problem is God. He just doesn't co-operate. Why can't things go right for me sometimes, why do stupid little things make me explode. My dreams and hopes lay in tatters and yet I still find that I keep striving to build myself a little kingdom with submissive subjects. Pathetic isn't it. Its all about me me me. But it is also about my family, my wife who feels the strain of my ministry, when people stab me in the back and she watches on helplessly. When the kids find that Dad is in the room but not home, far away in some conflict of the past or future. Yelling at the kids because I'm to afraid to yell at my parishioners (because I know then I will be in more trouble) feels good at the time but is not good anytime.



James 1:19-20 "Therefore, my beloved brethren, let every man be swifit to hear, slow to speak, slow to wrath; for the wrath of man does not produce the righteousness of God."



Yes I am an angry person because ultimately I must admit that I am angry with God. Perhaps I might reveal some of my reasons in time to come. Having said all this I thank God for His love and patience with me that He has not cut me off because of my anger towards Him, my family and my poor parish. Truely God is love.

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